Things have been the same with PB. He is growing like a weed, and Traci has taught him to fake cough. So he does this little cough and then laughs his head off. This WILL bite her in the ass at some point.. I am sure of it.. but it will probably be funny then, too.
We all have been sick in the house with the stomach flu. BM didn't believe that he was sick- and now believes that, while he was recovering and went to a visit- we asked to only feed bland rice cereal... well.. we are DEMANDING and reported that to the visitation worker.
*eye roll*
It is all exausting.
So. Here is the gig. I was on the news yesterday. I did an interview for a program that we have going on at work.
The interview went fine.. blah blah blah.. I could do crap like that in my sleep. I knew I wasn't going to look pretty-- I know I am a big girl. But when I saw the clip I was horrified. HORRIFIED. I felt like turning off my computer, going home, and locking myself in my room. My stomach sunk, I couldn't take my eyes off of myself. I looked like something on a TLC "before" show... where they have to get a special car to get the person to the gastric bypass doctor and he doesn't even know if he can DO the surgery because the person is so gigantic. Yes. THAT is what I looked like.
Yesterday was hard. SO HARD. I cannot believe I have allowed myself to get this large.
So. As much as I wanted to wallow in my sorrows, order a pizza and cry all night... Traci dragged my sorry ass out for a 4 mile walk (and now I have blisters on my toes). Then I contacted my old personal trainer, and we are meeting today.
Shit stops now. I am a mom. I am going to be getting married. I want to be alive.
I have all this damn shake mix... LOL
*exhale*
Here goes nothing.
