Who feeds a 1 year old chili?

BM does, of course. According to the case worker and the parenting aide, they both told her that chili wasn't the best idea for dinner. BM insisted she didn't have any other food in the house and fed it to her.

Bean's gift to us? Barf.

I had a meeting that evening and upon my arrival home I was informed that the chili vomit smelled like real adult vomit.

I'm not all that sorry I missed her puke transitioning from baby to adult.

Bean has started crying when I leave her at daycare.  Sometimes I feel like I am the mom that is always disappointing her. Hopefully someday I will be able to change that.

She is walking all over the stinking place and if we accidently leave the bathroom door open, she zooms in to put something in the toilet. She has an awesome toothy smile and adores music and books. She really hasn't said any words yet, but babbles endlessly.  I swear, I could listen to it all day long. She is hilarious, smart and beautiful.

In a few weeks she will have been with us for 1 whole year.

I want her hair.

Have you heard of Glennon Melton? She has written the book Carry on Warrior: Thoughts on Life Unarmed. She also is the blogger at Momastery.com - I want to say she is AMAZING and AWESOME and a freakin' ROCK STAR .. but what I like best about her is that she seems like just a random woman that might as well be living down on 124th St  She has over come some crazy crap in her life and she is finding herself working it all out while sharing her journey on her blog and in her book. She never claims to have it all together... not even for a moment. She could be the leader of the "sometimes I am awesome and sometimes I suck as a woman/mom/human" movement. But she does it all with a positive spin and idea that maybe this moment isn't exactly how we would like it but there is a new moment starting.. NOW.

And, man,  she has great hair.

After reading something she has written, I almost feel like I have a chance. No matter what people show outwardly, they all have challenges brewing inside. It is their choice if they want to share them with us. I wish more people would.. it might make the rest of us feel a tiny  bit more comfortable with the idea of sharing ours-- then we could all sit down and have a glass of wine and laugh about all the similarities we have between us... and realize that we are all warriors in this go-around.