I am quickly realizing that I have real issues with food. I mean. Yeah. DUH I HAVE ISSUES WITH FOOD. I wouldn't have gotten this massive if I didn't.
I'm talking about when I am with my children and they are driving me looney bins and I reach into their stash of candy for m&m's just to help me cool off. The other night, Traci and I were sitting on the couch chit chatting and I ate almost .. okay.. pretty much ALL of a bag of cheese puffs. I didn't even realize it until it was a done deal.
People don't do what I do and stay thin-ish. I don't want to fail. I want this to be the end all be all-- for my kids to never remember their big fat mom. I don't want to screw up and look back on a failed situation.
It.just.can't.happen.
It will take a lot of work and a lot of support from your friends and family. You can do it!!
ReplyDeleteIt does not go away after surgery. It is a tool but unfortunately not a magic cure. It is still hard for me a year later, dealing with life and not turning to food. Food is Fuel, not my friend. At least that is what what the signs say in my fridge and in the snack cupboard. Try to get it under control now, it will be much easier later.
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