Thursday, August 13, 2015

It is going to take more than just the surgery.

I am quickly realizing that I have real issues with food.  I mean. Yeah. DUH I HAVE ISSUES WITH FOOD. I wouldn't have gotten this massive if I didn't.

I'm talking about when I am with my children and they are driving me looney bins and I reach into their stash of candy for m&m's just to help me cool off.  The other night, Traci and I were sitting on the couch chit chatting and I ate almost .. okay.. pretty much ALL of a bag of cheese puffs.  I didn't even realize it until it was a done deal.

People don't do what I do and stay thin-ish.  I don't want to fail.  I want this to be the end all be all-- for my kids to never remember their big fat mom. I don't want to screw up and look back on a failed situation.