Wednesday, November 30, 2011

I'm in a funk

I knew these things would happen when I signed up to be a foster mom.

Now I just got a phone call from the facilitator that the visit for tonight was cancelled... As BM has an appointment that could run late. She also mentioned next weeks trial.

I had enough. I called her back and said... one is telling me anything. WHAT trial is NEXT week??? The baby's 5 year old brothers TPR trial is next week. The adorable little boy who has been in foster care for a big chunk if his short life...and has been pushed aside since his baby brother came into the picture and has taken over BMs attention at the visitations.

I am convinced that yesterday's hearing was squeezed in prior to brothers TPR trial for a reason. Typically when one TPR is approved the next one happens a little more quickly. But since she now has home visits, I don't know what to expect.

I simply don't know what to expect and that is my biggest problem. I have to put all control into a system that I really don't trust.

There is a big life lesson brewing, I know it.

Today I need to stop holding this baby, get off this couch and clean my apartment. It's horrid.

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  1. {{{big hugs}}}

    It will get better! It HAS to.

  2. I give you props for being a foster Mom. I could not begin to handle what you are going through. I hope the courts make the right decision and this BM does not sound like a right decision for any child. Sending lots of love and light your way.

  3. It's Sunday night and I just wanted to let you know that you blog finally appeared in my Google Reader. I won't miss out from now on.

  4. I am finally all caught up on your blog. Instead of leaving comments for each post I will purge them all into this box... :)

    1. So awesome that your boss is taking you to Vegas! I wish I had a boss like that. I don't have one clue where to go while there or what to do but I wish I were going with you!

    2. I want to say bravo for moving forward in such a way and congrats on dating again. It is up to you to find your happiness. Don't ever allow anyone to take that from you.

    3. Happy belated bday, Libra girl! I love your ideas for RAOK. I wonder if the receivers of those RAOKs paid it forward. Even if they didn't, I'm sure they appreciated the gesture.

    4. I have often thought about becoming a foster mom but then wonder if I could handle the rollercoaster of emotions that come with it. I applaud you for taking on this life as a foster mom. Just remain strong and be there as much as you can for that little boy. He sounds absolutely precious, btw!

    So that's all I have for now. I can't wait to read more!!!