Annd... here we go!

Today my license was re-instated. I will never enter a relationship and then go through a break up again as a foster parent. What a pain in the arse. Sheesh! It will all be worth it though, eh?

What a different mindset I have this time. I am calm and relaxed. I have everything ready as it can be... and it is just simply my responsibility to wait for the call. Until then, I enjoy life.

So much going on around me! A friend is planning a wedding and is in the midst of her TWW right.this.very.moment. There is lots going on at work, too. Not to mention getting ready for my Random Acts of Kindness day!

Smooshy update: man, she is .. whew!!! More dates have been gone on, lots of talking and hand holding. I realized.. how blessed I am because she simply fell into my life once again. I wish I could write out my life and her life in timeline form and have red strings that connect our lives to one another. It would look like a spider web.

Something beautiful is happening here... and I am thrilled to just allow it to happen and I will enjoy every moment as a child may enter at any time!

xo
ciw

Are you FREAKING HAPPY NOW?!?!??!?!

Why yes, I am.

I was driving around fake working yesterday, and I thought to myself ... my god, I am in love with my life. I may live in a crappy little apartment, and I owe too much on my credit cards. I may have an empty baby's room and a shower that sucks... but my god, I am happy.

Does it help that I have this amazing woman that is chasing me like a teenager in heat? Perhaps.. but that isn't all of it. I feel lighter, less spin-y, less clumsy and awkward. I feel like I am returning to who CIW was/is.

Does it help that this woman brings out that long lost CIW? I think so.

Okay- on to a more serious topic.

My birthday.

My old friend Nonny is coming into town for a few hours that day and we were going to go shopping and take a walk and explore a bit. I have found something different to do. On Pinterest (my addiction) I found a link to a woman who celebrated her 38th birthday by doing 38 random acts of kindness. I am totally copying it.. and Nonny is going to help me. I am SO EXCITED to do this, I can't STAND it (she is too!!!!). Here is the link to the blog.. And if you are anything like me.. get a hankie.

I will, of course, update here with how it went. I have started a list, and have 19 things planned. I hope to think of more and of course, have really random things happen the day of !!!!

This Week.

I was just having a typical two person conversation in my one person head... deciding weather or not I should call Case Worker 3 (CWIII) and find out how everything is going with my new home visit and where we are in the process.

As I was going back and forth between emailing and bugging vs. being trusting and patient... she emailed me to let me know that everything should be in place this week.

*exhale*

It's all good in the hood 'yo.

peace-
ciw

Enjoyable!

Date Watch 2011: The Update.

Doors were opened for me. Hand on the small of my back, guiding me through the crowds. Nice dinner, nice walk, nice drag show..  nice kiss.

WOW!

I almost forgot how nice it was to get a little dressed up and straighten my hair, wear contacts and make up ... to look, feel and smell a little femme-y!

The best part: she told me how much she liked my hair, and smell, and how nice I looked.

WOW (II)!

(I don't think I have used the word "nice" so much.. EVER)

Btw

A conversation that just happened...

Friend: wanna go out for a hamburger tonight?

Me: sorry, can't ... I have plans.

Friend: oh..ok...hot date?

Me: lol

(inside my head: why yes.. I do.)

Life is too short to worry about if "enough time has passed". If a hot butch wants to take me out... Who am I to argue?




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exhaling

Fall has landed here in Wisconsin. My favorite time.. the only thing that ruins it, is that it is followed by effing snow. Then Cranky Casey appears. This year, maybe it will be different. Actually, I have a feeling it will.

Everything in my life seems to be lining up just wonderfully. The best part.. I am NOT waiting for the shoe to drop. This is life. Life is good. Does that mean I am out of debt, and have a smokin' place, and I am in the best health of my life? No. Does it mean that I am happy? Yes. The people surrounding me are super positive. They are smiley,happy, funny and roll with the punches.

It is amazing to me how much frame of mind changes things.

Check it...the owner of the company is taking the company to Las Vegas in January. WHAT THE WHAT? Yup. Full expense paid trip. Flight/hotel/extra money/food/shows/drinks.. drinks.. drinks. This guy knows how to have a good time. Check THIS: I am in charge of making all the plans. Downer:  I HAVE NEVER BEEN TO VEGAS. I am like a deer in the headlights. Have you googled ANYTHING about Vegas in the last 30 years? There is a shit ton of stuff to do... all claiming to be the fun-est. Is that a word? The most FUN. Whatever.

I need guidance. I need to have someone tell me fantastic things to do, and let me pass them off as my own ideas.

Ready.... GO!

peace.
ciw

Saturday morning

What a beautiful crisp Saturday morning. I am spending my morning cleaning and organizing. This is the first weekend morning that I have had nothing going on since I moved.

I am going to soak up and love every single moment.



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